I have a dog, she unfortunately is a wimp. She was abused as a pup and is very skittish around people.

I have pepper spray, I also have a pistol permit and a pistol I take when I go out. It's not loaded because I don't want to risk him wrestling it from me and using it against me, but should he see me out he knows I have a gun. He also knows I'm not a roll over and take it kind of girl.

See, the reason I don't understand is that I never let him control me. I never once let him push me around. He would push me down and crap but number one I liked it and number two I always gave as good as I got. It's not like I was a beaten woman that just rolled over and took the abuse. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with that, I understand it's hard to get out of those situations but I was never ever a battered woman.

I stand up for myself, I'm a fighter and he knows that. So, I don't see the point in this. He knows I'll never go back, he knows he can't beat me down into submission there's really no end game going on.