How do you know if what you remember is made up or not? How trustworthy is Memory?

What if nothing bad ever happened to me?... What if I grew up happy and secure with a loving family??

Reading my mothers journals has cause me more confusion than the clarification I was hoping for.

What if I am wasting my time and money in therapy?

Why am I like this? I am so haunted by my past, but what if my memories are false?

There is no doubt my mind is fractured.... that I had a tumultuous childhood with lots of moves and instability. There is no doubt in my mind about later memories... but what about memories as a child... how do you know what is true and is just fragments of memories sewn together.

I don't know how to make sense of all of this anymore, I am so confused, I don't trust myself, my memories or even who I am. I doubt everything, but mostly myself right now.