Justice I shivered reading your story ....sorry that you've been thru so much. I was abused at three and I'm 50 now. My hope for the future keeps me hanging in there waiting for justice to be done.I dont know if this helps at all but the creator is going to destroy false religion that is filthy in its fruitage. If this doesn't help then please ignore..... Keep love alive in your life eg how you love Nico your beautiful dog. I love my children and pets...(((((hugs))))) to you and we are listening and trying to help when we can...luv Jjulia