Sabua. YOU ARE GREAT.
i agree with every word. and watstofly...most of posters here are really saying good things.

i will quote from a wounderful essay by Rafl Waldo Emerson. translated to modern Englihs byAdam Kan:
it really helped me to feel better about myself....

"2. SOLITUDE: A KEY
The ocean within can only be reached through solitude. The pressures, the desires, the opinions, the complaints, of others — even though we love each other — only cloud and obscure your vision. Solitude allows the dust to settle and the air to clear. Then you can see truly. Then you can attain the independence and strength and clarity that you will require if you wish to retain your honesty while among people. Otherwise, your human inclination is to acquire the notions and prejudices of your friends and family.

Solitude will free your mind and ears and soul from the constant, unimportant interruptions. Learn to distance yourself from too much entanglement in the problems or goals of others. Certainly shine light where it may help, but their goals and problems are theirs, and yours are yours, and keeping that distinction is the only way it can work.

Remember this: Getting caught in the web of others can only be done with your consent. You give your consent out of weakness.
But no more.

Your solitude and your deep honesty will strengthen you and guide your attention vitally and healthfully."

just in case you want to read the article
here it is: http://www.youmeworks.com/self_reliance_translated.html

all the best.