Even though I've only known him a short time, it's important because he was supportive and encouraging and believed in me. He pushed me to do better than what I was doing. I've never had that before. I've never had anyone give a rats *** what happened to me, not even my own parents. I've spent my whole life believing I'm worthless and can never do more than what I'm doing because that's what everyone in my life has said to me or showed me. No one has ever cared what I did. So to have someone come along and actually care what happens to you and believe you can do better means a lot. I just don't want to lose that. With him pulling away, all it does is show me once again that I'm not worth anyone caring about.