Thank you for the link. I need all the help I can get. It's hard to erase the tapes that have been playing in your head for 30 plus years that say you're worthless overnight.

I definitely lack self compassion. I've felt overwhelmed and pretty much paralyzed from being so upset over this friend disappearing. The last couple weeks I can't get myself to do anything. I don't cope with stress very well as it is due to some health conditions, so this has really sent me over the edge. I don't want to be this way.