I'm a 48 year old female and have extremely low self esteem and self worth. From the time I was 8 or 9 thru my 30's my dad constantly called me a stupid moron, said I wasn't worth anything, I'll never amount to anything. He abused my mom this way as well and still does to this day, so she's just as insecure. I remember coming to her in tears as a child after my dad had yelled at me and called me names, and all my mom said was, oh he didn't mean it. She never hugged me or tried to make me feel better. Neither of my parents ever showed any affection either. I've never gotten many hugs from my mom, no hugs ever from my dad, they've never once said they were proud of me or that they loved me.

Most of the men in my life have also made me feel bad about myself and I've never really been able to have relationships. I feel like the typical wounded girl constantly searching for her father figure and for someone to show they care. I'm tired of basing my self worth on how other men treat me. I'm always chasing after attention from men who don't give the same attention back. So that makes me feel bad about myself too, that I'm being so desperate.

I've never been in therapy because I could never afford it, and I feel like I'll die old and alone and have never felt loved.