See, the problem with standing up to my parents right now or leaving them is that they'll cut me off from their money, and right now I literally can't pay all my bills on my salary alone and I'm too sick from my health issues to get a part time job. When my parents help financially, they include strings, meaning they will only help you if you do what they want. I have washer/dryers at my apartment, but in order to keep getting help from them, I have to keep going over there and stay on their good side. My dad would never admit he's abusing anyone. To him, this is how people should be treated. I believe he was emotionally abused himself by his mother, so I'm sure this is just the only way he knows how to be. He's probably insecure himself and being a bully makes him feel better. I actually feel sorry for him.

I'll see if I can find some super cheap or free counseling. I live check to check, so I don't have much extra to spare. I'm behind on some of my bills this month already.

As lonely as I am, I'm honestly afraid to even start dating again. I'm already putting up with enough bad behavior from friends because I'm afraid to let them go and have no one or have to start all over and find new friends. I'm really afraid with the way I feel now, I'll just end up putting up with bad behavior from someone I'm dating just to get the attention.