I think that's why I always thought I didn't need therapy. I never needed anyone to tell me why I was doing the things I did or where they came from, but the fact that I'm still repeating the same mistakes again and again and ruining friendships over it, tells me I need more help finding solutions. Just knowing isn't good enough anymore.

I guess that's what I need to do is figure out how to parent the sensitive little girl inside me who still feels unloved and rejected.

My so called "friends" keep telling me now that I'm over 30 I can't keep blaming my parents anymore, but I think when you were abused so badly growing up, it's not that you're blaming them, but what they did to you has had a long lasting effect. I hear all the time that you have to give yourself what your parents didn't give you. How do you do that?