To answer your original question @rr13 , no.
Believe me when I tell you, if you go out there seeking a relationship right now, the way you feel about yourself, you are like a giant bullseye target with the words " Come and get me." pasted on your back for all the predators out there.
I wish the world were different, but there are so many people who see someone who is obviously suffering, and instead of thinking..."I'd like to help them. I know what that feels like" They - on autopilot, just react to your vulnerability, your sensitivity, your woundedness.
As nice as it would be to have a kind hearted person rescue you...I have never ever ever had that happen.
Except when it came to my tried and true friends, it takes time and effort to make good friends, put some effort into them, the ones that show that they aren't superficial jerks, and see how that helps you now.
What you are needing most is a kind of love that is healing, secure, trustworthy and real. And that takes a long time to develop. This is why so many people find comfort in church, and religion. Because this is what they share. Have you tried that road?
I personally don't go to church, but I am very actively pursuing spiritual paths of different religions and I find it to be both fulfilling and fascinating. This is how I'm healing, by finding this truth, and this love within.
You've heard it a million times, I know...because its' true.
I'm getting to where I don't care so much about finding or having a relationship with someone else because I'm finding an amazing relationship inside of myself.
I really don't want to settle for just anyone, I want someone who knows how to do that too, because they're going to be capable of the deep constant and true love that comes from having it in themselves.
Honestly, you don't seem to have it in yourself right now, and if you found the sort of fairytale romance where someone just dropped everything to rescue you, I would be so shocked. I have never in my life ever seen anyone get rescued...um only after years of abuse and they rescue themselves...which is where you are now...rescue yourself. Be your own Joan of Arc.
Why not? Well, if you can't do it yet, maybe you need to reset your connections in your brain with something like EMDR or EFT. Research it. It may get you just what you need.
AND if you take some time away from dating to heal and help yourself, and rescue yourself, you will be so much better when you KNOW that you are where you want to be, and won't need to or want to settle for - guess what - a re-enactment of life with your mother and father. You being like your mother is, and the man you pick who you think can rescue you feeling like your father, that he has no idea what he's doing and no idea how to do whats' right for those that are trusting him to quit being a ****...someday.
And you don't want that, I'm sure.
So, thats my answer for you, take time to rescue yourself, grow and get beyond your sad little puppy self right now, and become that which you know you are and find that which you know you want beyond anything else.