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with or without you · Jun 08, 2015, 08:57 PM

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Originally Posted by misslabarinth

I have extreme social anxiety phobia. mostly with men. because of traumatic experience. and when ever someone tries to talk to me or even looks over at me. putting there full attention on me. i feel like I'm being crushed and i end up getting severely anxious. can't sit still. sometimes i will even be afraid to move. for the most part I'm fine with girls but still a little hesitant. and when ever i do talk, my words are scrambled and i will hardly even know what I'm saying anymore. I like being the 'shadow' and being invisible. And for the most part i am great at it. I hate being the center of attention, i only have 2 or so friends, both girls. But i still hardly talk with them. when i was little i lived with my grandma along with my 2 brothers. because of family issues. and my grandma had told me that i was so nervous around people that when ever my uncle or whoever even my own family would look at me. i would throw my food down on the floor and refuse to eat unless no one was watching me. i still have sever social anxiety even though i am 14 and i was like 5 or 4 when the food accident happened my social anxiety seems to be getting worse. i need help badly. but i don't know what to do. ~ MissLabarinth

I was you 20 years ago. Please get help now. I obviously don't know you, but it sounds like you need professional help more than just meditation and relaxation techniques. I kept everything bottled up inside for the entire 4 years of high school. I didn't want to eat with anyone in the cafeteria, I didn't want to speak in class, I never went to any school functions, I had few friends and pretty much kept my mouth shut the whole time. I did not get help until I had a meltdown and lashed out at my parents at the end of my senior year. My mom took me to a psychologist the same week.

I don't want to scare you, but I am still struggling with it and I have had a somewhat unhappy adult life. I thought I would just "grow out of it", but I didn't in many aspects. I am now pushing 34 and I still wonder what would've happened to me if I had gotten help at the beginning of high school instead of the end.

You take care now.