oh moonkin......my heart bleeds for you....17 is such a difficult time without all the mental health issues........the pornography?...pretty normal for a young man..it will pass..........but i'm so happy that you are dealing with your issues at such a young age.....once you find the right meds and therapy.....you'll feel so much better.....i waited way too long to get help and wasted many years..........you WILL find love because you are so lovable in spite of all your problems........!!!.......i care........