Do you plan on having kids despite having bipolar?...
I always wanted to have kids as a child ,teenage and young adult and despite having episodes of mental illness prior to the pregnancy of my child I went ahead, naively thinking i would not have another 'bout' of mental illness in my life. My diagnoses at the time were schizophreniform pyschosis ,schizoaffective and psychotic depression.I tried again to have another child but with no fertility success.
When my child was 10 I had a psychotic episode and was diagnosised bipolar 1. This is the point where i decided not to have anymore children as it was a devastating time for my family and son.
I was unmedicated for 11 years.
This post fills me with regret but i have to accept all the decisions i have made in my life
Now another episode and 8 years later maybe i wasn't courageous enough as people deal with all sorts of things in life
I now feel sorry that my son is an only child and he is too having his own psychological/psychiatric difficulties. He blames me for lots of it
Although he has been the greatest joy in my life.