I found out last night that one of the guys that gang raped me when I was 10 died this weekend. I am having mixed feelings about this. But I dont know what to think about how I am feeling. I never wished outloud that he would die, but subconciously I feel I have. And I also feel relieved in a way too. But here he is married with kids and all that and how much they may be missing him. I hate feeling " happy" that he is gone. Because he is a loss to his family. I know most of you will say that I shouldn't feel guilty, but I still do. I just needed to vent some more about this. Thanks for listening. I appreciate it alot.

Tryin2bme