I am feeling about the same. I talked to my T today when he was in his office doing some paper work. I told him I wrote him a letter and he was interested and I told him I posted it here and he came and looked at it and we talked about it. I think it is getting closer to the time where I will be hospitalized. I am trying to put it off until after my surgery on Friday. The on-call therapist helped a bit but it wasn't who i expected so it made me bit uncomfortable. I was told to take my meds and call myT in the morning. I will call Steve when I wake up as he told me to do. I am supposed to come up with some reasons for me to live.

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