Lindsey, I understand now what you mean. I hadn't thought of hospitalization along those lines of thought and it makes sense how the whole idea is triggering for you. Hospital stays were no walk in the park, but I did it kind of like Kiya in her post above...managed to sandwich the hospital between jobs, and never told anybody about it. Fortunately, some really good therapy for the past few years has gotten me past the hospital stage for good. Nobody realizes how hard we work at this, which is why I come to this forum often for support and knowledge.