im so confused . I walked out of therapy today . because I don't know how to fix things . I am screwing up left and right and I don't know how to stop . she said that I am wasting her time and she is right but I don't know how to fix it and I feel so horrible for being this way .I don't know how to make it all better .and I am so scared she is going to give up on me .I see all the sighs. please don't tell me what a horrible t she is . she is not . I know I deserve this . I wouldn't have stuck with me as long as she has with me . why does she see me so calmly saying I don't hove any idea how to talk to her and that I don't know if I should keep on coming there as a threat .she said I am threatening her . I didn't yell or any thing in fact I was almost crying , I don't know how to talk to her and I was really wondering if it was ok to even still come to see her I felt again like it was not she was at this point radiating distain and even said I was wasting her time and I know that meant no I shouldn't any longer come to see her but I cant stop I am so pathetic . I couldn't even find another T because I burned those bridges when I tried to quit going to her and then went back and had to cancel on these other T . im hurt that she thinks I was threatening her. she said she doesn't want to do this . that whenever I am ashamed I get angry and try to pick a fight with her . that it is a waste of time instead od doing the work .I don't know what the work is and she thinks I do and am refusing . I don't know how to fix thixs . I told her I dot know .she says that I do I do and I left because I fetlt terrified and backed into a corner and unable to fix what I did wrong . I cant talk to her and that is the only thing that will possibly fix anything and I cant do it and she thinks I can so wont help me .im so scared . im going to be this way forever