I have to say, I admire your ability to articulate what you are drawn to. I've had crushes on older women all my life (still do) and I've never really stop to think as to why. When I was younger, I knew it had something to do with the fact that most girls my age simply were not interesting or had anything in common.

Most of my celebrity crushes were older women because felt like the typical 'young' women in media - starlets, 20 something actresses —*were just boring. I know now that's because the way those women's roles were written, making the 'sex object' rather than giving them full characterizations. It was the older female roles who had anything interesting to talk about, a sense of experience and history, intelligence, etc.

This is how I see "older" women as well. Now even that I'm older myself, I still look up to women who seem more experienced than myself. They seem confidant and safe. I don't see a problem with it though as long as I realize that this is a projection and not always the reality. As with anything in real life, the reality is much more complicated.