thanx. i feel so empty. i can't take his call on wednesday. i am going to work the late shift, i got called today.. one of the girl's sprained an ankle. i guess it's fate.

i don't know how i am going to face him now. i honestly don't think he understands enough about me yet to understand that for the first time he had a session with the real me. That scares me a lot... and i need to make sure he doesn't figure that out.

i miss him and i want to see him and talk to him, but i am afraid of him and i am too scared to see him.