I don't know what you should do with it, but I can tell you what I have learned. It's important to know who you can seek support and comfort from, who can provide the things in life you need - love, care, support, understanding and emotional closeness. While for many people their families provide those things for them, for some of us our families can't or won't or whatever. We need to find what we need from others or from ourselves. What I can offer my friends is, hopefully, of value. I also hope what they can offer me might fill some of the void my family's left.