Hi rr13

I'm a man and read your posting. I'm sorry the men in your life have been horrible to you. But I hope you can realise that there are good men out there that treat women well. I had a similar childhood to you but I had the reverse problem - I was severely abused by women in my childhood with my mother being the ring leader. So I have issues with intimacy with women as a result. Women can be just as abusive as men. I hope you can get therapy to resolve your past.

PH