Crap. I totally own this. I keep asking myself what is it I do that makes me get treated so differently. Alone is easier but a lot less interesting... All I can say is high functioning BPD puts out vibes that warn people off. We must not be aware of it... And yeah it sucks. Even as a quiet and pretty fresh young adult I was always alone and unlucky at attracting anyone. And the boyfriends I did have drifted away easily...

My one consolation is knowing I'm not alone in this...

Stick with the annoying friend. All friends are annoying. BPD is so conflicted.... We don't want to be alone but we are so afraid of having to change for anyone else... Our needs are too important to us.