Hi kingston042389 !

I have a few thoughts about your concerns.
It is important that you discipline yourself, The terrible "D" word that is contrary to the core nature of bipolars must become a way of life. Self-discipline is the decision to consistently stay a course of action for the purpose of building and maintaining a life. Discipline is always obeying the reason and order of the left brain, instead of acting on the impulses and whims of the emotional and oft-times disorderly right brain. We must not act on impulse inappropriately. .

Above all I think it is important to have a passion for something in life. It all comes down to having a purpose and reason to live. It's not easy for people with our condition to function with consistency; but we must.