Am I truly happy?

I don't know if I've ever really been happy! In my LIFE!

What if it was just the hypomania making me feel happy. Really this is serious. What if it was just a "chemical happy" and I've just been in denial all this time and what I thought when I was happy I wasn't actually happy at all.

What's going on with me?

Do I even make sense?

Oh gees here comes my confusion.