Hi there, I had another post in which my therapist thought I had Bipolar... and that I was scared. I went to Psychiatrist last night, after a long 1.5 hr appt, talking, lots of questions/ questionnaire- she feels that I have BP, it is not BP 1 (meaning: it is not showing severe signs of mania) but she believes it is Bipolar, so now 2 clinicians suspect. She will send Eval over to my therapist, and I will know more as to the actual diag.. So that is somewhat relieving to me. Although the inner skeptic is always present- wondering if this is all really happening. It makes sense too, that since starting Prozac, i have become much more 'high' feeling (i think this is mild mania). She said if i had a higher dose, it could have been worse.

So- what I am mostly worried now is the prescription. She wants to give me Lamictal 25mg for 3 weeks, working our way up slowly. I am really scared- b/c she told me about the side effects/ rash. She doesnt want to do Lithium b/c of eating disorder history and possible dehydration and blood tests needed, etc.

I am trying not to overly google this drug, do not want to make myself nuts here. I am 34 yo, I generally am healthy- i think i will need to ease up on the alcohol (1-2 nights a week i do enjoy a few glasses). If i start to see signs of this terrible rash- and if i catch it early- is it still deadly? I am a abit of a hypochondriac also....!!! so that **** is scaring me... :O

She said i can change my mind, and think about it - shes really nice and seems very available.. Is there another drug I should look into / consider without the rash risk or weight gain? I am very in tune with my body- Typically hate to take meds like this, but i really want to have a normal life so I am willing to dive in if necessary. She said if i start feeling better at say 50mg or whatever #, we can stop increasing dose. Perhaps i need to just 'let go' and let the process work.

(side note: I had a bad allergic reaction to Penicillin after taking it all my life, last summer, bad case of hives on my skin...ALL OVER my body- was so crazy. So even though this does not indicate i will get the rash- I am traumatized by that experience so it triggered some real fears there... though I was assured these are both very different / unrelated drugs). \

Thank you for your input here- it means allot