I think that the phone call brought up a lot of hurtful memories to the surface again. Are you in counseling? If not you might want to consider it. That kind of childhood abuse is hard to deal with on your own.

For now find something you enjoy doing to take your mind off this phone call. Maybe you should consider changing your phone number.

Also, vent here as much as you need to to work through this anxiety/panic attack.

If you need to talk privately, I will be glad to listen, just PM me.