I would like to give a big thumbs up to Ruh Roh and Peaches, and Stop. I think they all have valid points. Your mind twists things around very easily when you are feeling vulnerable (like when you called her recently). I think you do a ton of mind-reading, and then spiral out from what you imagine your T might be thinking. Its ok that you walked out, just try your hardest to go back.

If you do, can you at least say that you REALLY do not know how to work through the intense shame/fear you feel?