hey Christina.

listen..have you ever tried TRAINING AND SPORTS?
you know that you can do excercise, and a LOT and tomorrow....you may feel your muscles hurt.. ;-)
but of course not OVERDOING it but doing somethng that will both release your stress in the moment- you can give it a try for me it does, and then when you can`t go on anymore you are so EXHAUSTED that you don`t want to think even. not about SI or anything else. you want to go to bed. i think that physsical excercise can improve your mood because it has a effect on the body.

wow i am getting long sorry.

"... I think I'm talking too much, sorry. Waste of time, space and energy I am. Seems to be my entire existence. "

you know i clicked on your thread thinking "i hope this 1 is not long, i am tired" and when i started reading it i forgot about my tireness,,,, so NO it is not a waste of time, THE ONLY waste of time will be doing harmful things, because then it takes more time to over come again.

come on! you are strong! i know you can make it.
you are just so CUTE
hugs