Hi Hooligan,
Sometimes there are no "right" words and sometimes everything comes at you all at once..........so just try to tell it as it is, as much as you can, doesn't matter how you tell it, sometimes the more you say the more things piece together
And the not knowing who you are, understanding yourself..........well little clue here .......what/who you are underneath all those feelings is awesome
Sure, I know, things.....feelings are dragging you down right now, but maybe either try to deal with them one by one or if there's something lying under all of that/holding you down........and give yourself time.........I know the "just wanting things to be better" or just a little better even, but bit by bit...............
And we're here to help because we know you're awesome regardless!!
Alison