first let me say I am very sorry for your loss. it is the most difficult thing I think anyone can endure. There are alot of things that happen in the grief proccess. It is never in a certain order either so everyone goes thru it differently. I think the first thing though in recovery is the acceptance of the loss. I think that didn't happen for me with my granddaughter until we had her autopsy results and that took 5 months. Once I accepted it it began to get easier. When it first happens though I think that is very difficult to do.