My daughter is worried I may be dying. Honestly I've lost all hope of my life improving. All I do is make bad decisions that hurt me and those I love. I may have cancer of the uterus. I'll find out July 7th.

I finished a Bachelor degree in 2011, after my mental health diagnosis in 2007. No one in my field will hire me. I'm legally homeless now, since Feb. My credit, once excellent is gone.

I really can't deal with my life choices. I don't even listen to God, my gut instinct, my family, who cuts me out when I don't listen. I just do whatever, whenever. Well I give up.

I asked God to take me out a few days ago. After an argument with my 3rd husband. Yesterday I met with an OB/Gyn. I ovulated, hormones are fine, not premetapause, it's either a polyp or cancer.

I just give up. My dad is gone, my son is gone, my daughter lives with dad and step mom. Life is just too hard and too awful. All those loses killed my spirit than. Now I know 3 people who on this planet would want me around. My daughter, my husband who just now was giving me pep talk, and my best friend.

The only one who would really hurt a little to leave is my girl.