I think I found a good therapist, she actually brought up the ED, based on observations, no one told her, she just started asking questions and figured it out pretty quick. I have stabilized at this point, but it is so hard.... every day is a fight... for me to finally admit I have an ED is a big step for me.... but I have to start somewhere... I thought it would be better to admit it.... but it doesn't change the way I feel...

Thanks for all the answers and support