Hello, winterglen. .

You're not stupid or worthless. I'm sorry you feel this way. The mere fact that you feel badly for not helping out shows that you are a good person.

Ok, so that's what happened. You've apologised for tonight, now let's make tonight a stepping stone for the nights to come. On your next shift, an hour or so before closing, ask your partner, what is it that needs to be done. Designate tasks for each other. Then, get to work on them as soon as you can before closing. That way, you won't feel like she/he does things, and you didn't. And it will also encourage L to share tasks, rather than taking everything upon herself. It'll help you both.

I hope this helps you.

Don't feel bad about tonight, friend. We all have those days where we feel stupid at work for not knowing something, or we feel we hadn't done enough to help someone out. That doesn't make you stupid, or useless. It makes you human.

See tonight as an opportunity to improve things for nights to come.

Take care.

Regards,
Isabelle.