Mefisto
I'm really sorry to read that you have two incurable life conditions. Honestly, I battle to find the words to say how I feel for you and the situation that you are in.
All factors considered, I really do understand your anxiety, because I've faced minor adversities in life, by comparison to you. So I can not imagine what that feels like.
Please continue to post here. It does help to write it down.
And we're always here to listen.
You matter to us

Always