Soon will be my 6 month anniversery with my boyfriend. August 10th. And here's the thing... it was before the relationship before him that i had taken a year off even LIKING people... i didn't have any desire whatsoever for relationships, love, or anything of the sort... and i mean AT ALL, i despised the thought, and felt safer without anything like that. I had never had a "relationship" that even made it to the 3 month mark. What would happen was, I would tell myself, "Hey, i really do like this person a lot..." and as soon as i admitted that to myself... it was gone in a flash, it just left... like it was some kind of defense mechanism to stop liking someone because of previous hurt, blah blah blah, we all know what i'm talking about.... though 6 months isn't a very long time when you really look at things, especially those of you who are married and have been for many years, or even decades... but i just wanted to report on my success in getting through that obstacle in my life... Because my boyfriend before my current one had been extremely psychologically abusive (not during the "relationship" which only lasted a month and a half) and it would seem that after an ordeal like the one i went through with him, that i would close myself off to relationships...which is what i had wanted to do... but for some reason, after that, i finally got over my obstacle with shutting off in relationships! I got over the obstacle of being uncomfortable with physical closeness, which was a huge part in the demise of previous relationships... and there was a point, in this relationship, where i had almost shut off, but this time, i made all the right choices, and made it through, and now am more in love with him than i have ever been (i had been quite in love once before, lol, as much as it seems someone as young as i was wouldn't be able to experience that, i believe i did, and will continue believing that for the rest of my life) And since I have no money, and from what i've heard my boyfriend is getting me a really really nice gift, i decided to make a website for him... so if u wanna check it out, its at http://www24.brinkster.com/iluveddie... just thought i would share a success story, though it may not be much, its so huge to me.
ºPhae