I have internal splitting due to early trauma, but I have never thought of myself as DID nor have I received that diagnosis. I have a stable ego (conscious) self and don't have amnesia. But I can dialogue with my parts. I can ask a question and sense part of me answering, and I have gotten to know many parts clearly.

Here's my struggle. I have always wanted to be a composer of classical music since being a child. I heard music in my imagination as a child, but I could never stabilize my attention on it long enough to write it down. Then later I lost the music in my imagination. I can't hear music any more in my imagination, not even just remembering music I've heard before. I have actually done a lot of study of music now and I can compose with the help of a piano or computer (to help me hear the sound) but it's not very fun compared to using my imagination (and not very good either). Every once in a while I get a little hint of music, or dream that I'm hearing music.

What I wonder is whether the function of imagining sound split off into a sub-part. Maybe someday I can get it back if I reunite my psyche. Has anyone had any experience like that?