Hi, couch. I'm still here. Still overwhelmed. There is a lot about how I'm feeling that I don't like, well, I don't like any of it but the hardest thing is that I can't force myself out of this. I can't just make it go away and me feel better. I don't like that I want to talk to T or feel like I need her when I get this way. I'm a grown *** woman I should be able to figure this **** out on my own like I've done the past lotta years. Frustrates me. I guess some things really triggered me and others are throwing me for quite the loop.

Hugs to everyone.