It's weird. I have friends, I have family, I know people YET I feel like I'm alone and that nobody knows me. I don't feel close to anybody.

I'm in college and it feels like I'm lost. Kind of lost in my own little world, wandering on my own. I usually hang out with my friend that I've known since elementary school at college and her other friends. But now with them I kind of feel left out though I eat lunch with them, talk to them, or whatever I do with them. Like I just don't feel 'right' with them. I feel like I have lost the connection. I don't have that connecting feeling with people anymore.

I have 2 other friends but they don't go to my college (I've known them since high school). They call me their best friend but this feeling isn't being reciprocated by me. One of my friends goes on and on saying "wow, we have known each other for X years! I'm so glad to know you! You're my best friend!". But this feeling isn't reciprocated by me (maybe it makes me a jerk idk). I just don't feel that connection with her. I don't feel close with anybody. I feel like nobody really knows me and who I really am because i conceal how I'm truly feeling from everybody.

Even with my family. They know me, they see me, YET I don't feel close to them; there is no connection present. Heck, I can wander off somewhere and not turn back and I won't miss them.

I don't feel a connection with ANYBODY. It seems to me that in actuality nobody really cares about me. I don't care to make friends anymore, I just want to be alone most of the time. I don't trust people anymore. I much rather do things on my own than with somebody. (Yes, I'll still talk to other people but I wouldn't have an intent to be friends with them or anything. Just keep with the business and then leave - no friendships made).

It seems like nobody in the world really knows me. I feel alone and lost in this world living in my own world in my mind. If I were to disappear I woudn't care if anybody would miss me because I wouldn't miss them back. Maybe I'm used to the loneliness and find comfort in it idk. It's a lost sense of connection.