Hi InACorner,

I'm sorry that your first experience with a T was such a difficult one. I know you said you don't wish to try therapy again, but it may be that you could have a very different, much more positive experience with another T, even though that seems hard to imagine now. If you decide to try again, you might want to consider if you want to try a T of a different gender (sometimes that is helpful for some people) or somebody who has a different approach. Sometimes just meeting someone with a different personality helps....it may be that you and this first T just didn't "click" very well. It can be a big task to go through therapy, and it's true that it is a lot of work....and can be scary, depending on what you are doing in therapy and such....but it can also be a place of positive support and growth. If you decide you want to try again at some point, I hope it will go better for you. Meanwhile, there are other forms of support out there, too, if you want something like that. There are support groups....Psych Central....various choices online and in 3D.

Thinking of you and wishing you all the best....

Take care,
ErinBear