Yes. That word. Forever. As people have said it is a sucker punch. As some said as well it hits me at different times in different ways. Unfortunately, when I am depressed it smacks me in the face over and over again. It can be a dangerous word.

Along with that comes the whole thing about acceptance and learning about your own condition. I in no way feel defeatist when I say that it was lowering my expectations of how I SHOULD be able to be and feel in the world and allowing myself to wriggle off the hook sometimes and realize that I am Bipolar and that's ok. I'm not like everyone else and I have to live my life differently than others.