I am super super sensitive and it can be a curse...I've been hurt to many times to the point I don't allow anyone in my life...I have no desire to have friends etc...But each time I fall in a depressive state, I feel like I am alone on an island thats sinking fast...And its a reminder that people aren't safe...Which makes me pull away from my T...

My head is really messed up and I broke down and called my T tonight...She was very caring and understanding but I felt very wrong for turning to her because she is a human...But if I hadn't I wouldn't be here...The voices were getting control and I've been known to injure myself just to shut them up...But this time they were pushing me to die...I came so close of doing something even though I said I never would...

It just one hit after another the past couple of months...I react to everything and I am tired of me....Tired of each day the mountain looks higher.................FP