Well that was my little rant as my life really became crystal clear yesterday. I guess i had been in denial thinking everything was going to be fine. saw my doc today. got a nice little venous cath placed. Looks pretty sexy, so I'm gonna be rocking the matrix look for beach season. it will be a good conversation starter. Next week I'll be having a graft placed in my arm as a fistula takes to long to form….good times. But im in control at least..