Eva, thank you for sharing these insights. I have felt so lost and so alone in all of this, but with everyones help here, I see that I am not alone.

I appreciate everyones words and take them all to heart. I don't know where this is all going but at least now I know I am not alone.

Trying to get him to go to therapy is so very difficult. I fear if I keep pushing it, everything will blow up. There are other issues that I am dealing with now also and fear that I will make the wrong decision so I am being very careful. I just want to know that what I do is right.

Sorry, I guess the more I think about it, the worse I feel. Trying to come to terms with my emotions has been nothing short of a roller coaster ride to the moon.