Oh guys, no apologies needed! Made me smile to see you all jumping in and having your say. I wrote to half reach out to someone who could relate and partly just to get that thought out in the open. It is lonely. You do it on your own.

On the thoughts about finding a "cure", I believe its too much of a heterogeneous of a disorder for it to be as simple as just finding a cure. There are too many fragments. We are all preciously fragile dolls who have been dropped on a concrete floor to be shattered in to a million pieces.