I am so sorry that you are in so much pain and that it has been affecting relationships that you really value. I too suffer from chronic pain and can relate to some people not understanding. I try to do as much as possible and be around those I love and if they have issue with how slow I roll or that I use a cane on good days and a walker on bad ones then I try to educate them. It has worked with some and not with others which makes me sad because I really value their role in my life (sister, niece, etc..).

Do you have someone to talk to about how you are feeling? I went to a counselor when my chronic pain got severe enough to make me feel like I just wasn't me anymore and the depression that came with that and it did really help. I still see a counselor but for other reasons now and am a believer in having someone unbiased to talk to.

If you ever need to vent or talk I am here to support you.