OK, this is incredibly long, but in the interest of maybe explaining more, here's the e-mail/novella I sent to MC last night (with any identifying details like names and sports teams removed):
Hi MC,
Just got off the phone with T, who helped talk me through some of the emotions I'm feeling. Figured I'd try to send a more rational e-mail to counter the voicemail. Here are a few thoughts, in no particular order:

--Abandonment: I've shared some stuff about fear of abandonment with you, including regarding paternal figures. Yes, I know you're not abandoning me in the sense that you are still willing to see H and me for sessions. However, it still stirs up those emotions in me when I say that I'd like to meet with you, and you tell me no (despite the fact that on Friday, you said it wasn't about what you were comfortable with, it was what I'm comfortable with).

--The L-word: When I said I loved you, I meant it in a more paternal/platonic sense. I told T I loved her last week, too. I'm trying to be open and honest with my emotions instead of holding them inside and worrying how people would react if they knew. With regards to you, I still feel vulnerable about it. I don't just tell people (aside from H and daughter and my parents) that all the time. (it was a big, scary deal when I told it via text to a friend of mine a few months ago, and she and I have been friends for years). Some of the stuff you said today was especially painful for me in light of the fact that I just shared those feelings with you. Like, I was letting myself be particularly vulnerable with you, and now I'm feeling pushed away.

--Neediness: I've talked about (including Friday) being afraid of needing people. Yet I've admitted to you that I feel like I need to talk to you. So I'm being vulnerable in saying that I feel that need. However, you seemed to say today that feeling like I needed that indicated that I shouldn't meet with you. When I said it was painful that you said that, you implied that I should just deal with the pain, as it would make me stronger. It felt like you knew I was hurting, but just continued to make it more painful. (You also compared it to a breakup you'd had, which did not help with the whole abandonment thing.) Sometimes, I just feel some inexplicable need for something, and it isn't until later that I find out why I needed it.I think this is one of those things.
--Tough love vs. a softer approach: I feel like you were trying to do the tough love thing on me today, when on Friday, you seemed particularly compassionate and caring. It almost feels like some sort of bait and switch, even though I'm sure you didn't intend it to be that way. I'm not used to you using that approach (that's more T’s territory!), so it kind of threw me. I know you don't want me to get caught up in some vicious cycle of needing reassurance from you, but I'm feeling especially vulnerable right now, so it's hard.
No right answer/devil's advocate: In the last part of the conversation, it seemed like anything I said as a reason I wanted to meet with you (or felt upset about you saying no), you had an answer for that showed why it was a reason that I shoudn't meet with you. I felt like anything I said was somehow proof that you should stay away from me.I guess what I should have said was, "I'd rather meet with anyone, even [politician I hate or your favorite sports team’s biggest rival’s best player], instead of you!" and then you would have gotten out your calendar.
Really, I would have been completely content if you'd just said, "Meet with T for a while, see how things go, see if you're able to work through things with her. If, say, in a month you still feel like you want to meet, we can consider it then." But it just felt like you refused to say that.

Ultimately, it just felt like I was being pushed away, which triggered the abandonment feelings, especially because I was just open and vulnerable with you about my feelings. I was in pain, and I felt like you thought it was OK because I'd learn from it. And yes, I know therapy can be painful--trust me!--this just felt extra difficult in the moment because of what you were saying and how you were saying it and how you just seemed to be pushing more and more.

So, I think that kind of covers it...I just want help getting through this and processing things, that's all.
If you could just confirm that you got this, just via e-mail or even shoot me a text (don't worry--I won't start texting you!), that would be good. If you want to talk via phone about it at some point, that's fine too (phone no.). Or we could talk Monday (I've talked to H about all this), too. But I'd just like to know you got it, cause it's kinda long.
OK, thanks for reading.
LT