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Originally Posted by Something is Wrong
It's weird. I have friends, I have family, I know people YET I feel like I'm alone and that nobody knows me. I don't feel close to anybody.
I'm in college and it feels like I'm lost. Kind of lost in my own little world, wandering on my own. I usually hang out with my friend that I've known since elementary school at college and her other friends. But now with them I kind of feel left out though I eat lunch with them, talk to them, or whatever I do with them. Like I just don't feel 'right' with them. I feel like I have lost the connection. I don't have that connecting feeling with people anymore.
I have 2 other friends but they don't go to my college (I've known them since high school). They call me their best friend but this feeling isn't being reciprocated by me. One of my friends goes on and on saying "wow, we have known each other for X years! I'm so glad to know you! You're my best friend!". But this feeling isn't reciprocated by me (maybe it makes me a jerk idk). I just don't feel that connection with her. I don't feel close with anybody. I feel like nobody really knows me and who I really am because i conceal how I'm truly feeling from everybody.
Even with my family. They know me, they see me, YET I don't feel close to them; there is no connection present. Heck, I can wander off somewhere and not turn back and I won't miss them.
I don't feel a connection with ANYBODY. It seems to me that in actuality nobody really cares about me. I don't care to make friends anymore, I just want to be alone most of the time. I don't trust people anymore. I much rather do things on my own than with somebody. (Yes, I'll still talk to other people but I wouldn't have an intent to be friends with them or anything. Just keep with the business and then leave - no friendships made).
It seems like nobody in the world really knows me. I feel alone and lost in this world living in my own world in my mind. If I were to disappear I woudn't care if anybody would miss me because I wouldn't miss them back. Maybe I'm used to the loneliness and find comfort in it idk. It's a lost sense of connection.
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Hello,
Have your heard the term, INTJ? Introverted Intuitive Thinking Judging. It might be a possibility. This personality tends to be very intelligent, but has a tough time socializing.
I'm not here to judge or label, just to offer some insight.
Outside of my Husband, I don't really have
close friends. I often feel that people like the idea of me, but they don't want to form a real connection. I seem to intimidate them. I'm not mean, just assertive and I take change in-stride. These two factors separate me from the pack.
It sounds like you prefer to be alone, but you also want friends. Time to change patterns and break-out of your comfort zone. Push yourself out there and really share something about yourself. If your current friends don't like the new you...then you're right, your not best friends.
Sending you light and love. Best of luck!
