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I can relate to so much of what you wrote .... that sinking feeling, that vulnurability ... it is so hard to be going through feeling like that. I am glad that you called your T though. While maybe now you look back and think "well maybe i shouldn't have ..." I think that it was soo so good. Its easy to look back and say that we should have done things differently, but the reason behind that is because we are no longer in that same situation. We are no longer feeling those intense things that we were at that moment ... thus making it easier to question why we did what you did. Yes your T is a human ... but so are you, and sometimes we just have to do what it takes in order to help ourself, and i'm sure your T understand that.

I know its hard, but just try and take a deep breathe and relax. Take things as they come. One foot in front of the other will make that mountain hill become smaller and smaller.

Hugs
Jacq