I started my new AP last night and got some much needed drugged but sound sleep. I learned when my cat wanted breakfast that my blood pressure is going to dip low on this; I almost fainted and spent a while hanging on the kitchen counter trying to not faint or vomit. From now on I will get up much more slowly.

Obviously one night isn't enough to fix everything. This stuff is supposed to help with agitation pretty quickly and I do feel more calm.

But the paranoia needs some more time (and possibly more medication; I'm on a tiny dose). It probably also needs some time for my body to adjust to the Seroquel coming down; last night I cut 150 mgs and tonight I cut another 150. But anyway, last night I noticed a lightning bug in my house. I think it is important to say that I really like bugs and am interested in them; I have degree in biology and one of my favorite classes was entomology. So being bothered by any bug is rare. I've been known to work very hard to catch a cockroach.

But I'm having a very hard time believing this lightning bug isn't following me everywhere and staring at me for some negative purpose. And it's a LIGHTNING BUG.........hardly a dangerous critter. I can at least keep a foot in reality and talk myself down every time I see the thing (or things; there could be 12 of them in here for all I know. My window screens were done wrong and don't cover the whole window so lots of bugs get in. But I am actually concerned about the reasons an insect is in my house or why it is flying around.....lovely.