Everyone has that moment where they want to be anyone but themselves. Especially when the cycles of the illness take over. But here is the thing. You aren't your mania. Yes the mania makes you do things that are unbecoming of who you are, but really, you are you. And the reality is, everyone is a good person. Despite the actions while manic, or depressed. I hold nothing against anyone as far as the actions while ill. Don't ever be afraid to be you.